I don't understand why my being happy is a bad thing... How can you love your child but not want them to be happy, or to be themselves? I don't get it. I could never ever treat anyone the way my family has been treating me, let alone my future children. For the most part I let it go, I make excuses for them or I just simply shrug it off but at the end of the day it does hurt. Not the words they say, not the jokes or cold shoulder... The thing that hurts the most is not feeling loved by the people who SHOULD love me. It's okay though, because I am loved. Maybe not by them but by the people who truly love me, who want wants best for me and accept me just the way I am and I am blessed for that.
Besides... I AM happy. I am so happy, I am happy that I AM happy. Does that make sense? I can't really explain it.. I just feel complete. For the first time in my life I feel like there arnt enough years. I want to be able to feel this way forever. I'm excited about the future, our future together and the children we will hopefully have one day.
So anyone who can't accept me for the person I am, or who doesn't love me and can't treat me with respect is going to miss out on sharing a great life with us. I feel sorry for them.
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